Lapband update 121309

Was talking with a very dear friend of mine at the UND hockey game last night and she asked me why "they" quit posting my blog. I chuckled and said that....well...."they" is actually ME and i'm the one who has not kept up with my blogging.

I also chuckled and laughed and said nobody reads it anyway.......but that really true and I know that.

I overheard someone make a comment last week, it was something like ...."she had surgery". THE conversation was relating to someone I know needing to loose weight and the reason I have is because I HAD SURGERY. While this is true, it does bother me when people say that because with Lapband surgery, it's not a magic surgery that makes it EASY to loose weight.

I have worked really hard to get to where i'm at right now, AND I still have a long way to go. I have exercise, I have to eat right(trust me, I still don't). I can't eat as much, with the lapband, but I still struggle with eating right.

97 KYCK is teaming up with Center Court in Grand Forks in January for a Biggest Loser competition, if it's something you are serious about, make sure you listen for info on the competition!

Oh, i'm up to 4 miles now. I'm not running everyday, 3 or 4 times a week. Also working out too! EVEN during the holidays!

Remember, YOU can do it too!

Merry Christmas,
Kerri

Lapband update 112409

Hmmm, what to type. I'm proud of my accomplishments on one hand, then on the other, I'm frustrated with my lack of will power. I've been running pretty steady now for the last 2 months. A friend of mine encouraged me to run farther, not faster. Great advice! This week, I've started running 3 miles instead of 2. And I was so proud when I ran 3 miles without walking.
Then on the other side, I seem to have no problem eating a half a bag of M&M's, chocolate, sweets, whatever is what I am really struggling with. I have got to try harder, change some things in my life. I put so much into exercise and i'm not reaping the benefits of it because I can't stop eating crap.

One habit that I decided needs to stop tonight is eating before bed. I jump in bed after a long day, turn on the tv, power up my laptop to do some work I didn't get done and eat. Stops tonight. and If I do, it'll be something healthy.

Healthy eating is not easy, nor cheap. That's what makes it hard for me. But, I need to make some changes for my family, my husband, daughter and myself!

With that said, my eyes are burning because i'm so tired and it's 8pm. LOL

Happy Thanksgiving!
Kerri

Lapband update 110509

Good Morning,

I'm feeling good about the fact that i've been running 2 miles everyday. Well, Monday thru Friday anyway. I take our dog out on one of our back roads, and run 2 miles. I'm pushing myself to run longer stretches of "faster", rather than "longer" distances.

I've been asking myself if I should attempt the Fargo 1/2 marathon. I'm a person who has to keep goals out there in front of me and that would be an excellent goal. and a BIG one!

I never understood it when runners would talk about running being addicting. I'm starting to understand that now!

eating is going ok, I really need to cut back on sweets. That is my biggest struggle right now!

Food hasn't been getting stuck, which is great.

Have a great Thursday!
Kerri

Lapband update 102209

Seem to be having troubles the last couple days. Don't know why I was thinking I could eat ground hamburger and noodles. VERY DUMB! Pain, and I had to hack it back up. So, I spent a good 1/2 hour hanging over the toilet.

Got home late last night night, tired, ate some potato chips, they NEVER get stuck. WRONG! I was in so much pain, and too tired to get up so I spent a couple hours "trying" to sleep, thinking I should get up and finally I did. I ended up over the toilet 3 or 4 times until I finally got UNstuck.

I think food gets stuck worse at certain times of the month.

I can usually eat popcorn, thought I would try some today, LOL...it's stuck! and it sucks! Off to the toilet I go!

Enjoy your day!
Kerri

yes, i'm crabby cuz I didn't get much sleep last night AND the night before!

Lapband update 101509

Howdy,
Things are going pretty good, wish this crappy weather would stop so I could run outside with my dog! I'm making it to the gym 4 times a week, shoot for 5, settle for 4. Eating has been pretty good, much easier to eat healthy after my adjustment.

I'm STILL amazed at how some days, food gets stuck bad and other days, I can eat any and everything and nothin gets stuck. It's crazy!

I still have those sweet temptations, like peanut butter M & M's. I shouldn't have bought a big bag yesterday. it's gone!

I'm trying to be "mindful" of my night time eating, that's something i've struggled with my ENTIRE life! So for me, that is something i'm working on!

I have free ZUMBA passes at Center Court Fitness center, it's so fun! Latin style aerobic work out! Let me know if you want to go!

Have a fabulous week end!
Kerri

Lapband update #2 092109

OK, so I went to the gym to work out, which BTW, I had an excellent W/O! Man it felt so good! I always ask myself why I allow myself to get out of the habit of exercise.

Anyway, I know i've lost muscle from not working out, but to my surprise, after months and months and months, heck about a year of not being able to get any weight to come off the scale, I've lost 3 pounds! So here's what i'm thinking.......maybe, just maybe my band is adjusted to where it should be! Gee, imagine that!!!!!!

I am eating more, because I can...i'm also eating healthier!

I'm feeling much better! I'm actually not even hungry. Not like I usually am. That's because I was able to eat a healthy lunch!

LOVE IT!
Kerri

Lapband update 092109

Eating is much easier, and that is a good thing and a bad thing. I'm really struggling with this whole deal. GRRRR, I'm frustrated, either food gets stuck or i'm able to eat food I don't want to eat.

I ate 1/2 a doughnut today, I haven't had a doughnut in a year!!!!

I better go, before I run out of time to work out!

Dr. apt next week, we'll see what she says!

Later,
Kerri

Lapband update 091309

It's been about a week and half since my adjustment. My dr. took 1cc OUT. It's so nice to be able to eat healthy foods, all this time I've been eating a lot less, but not eating healthy. My brain thinks that less food is better! Not so at all!
Now I am finding that i'm eating less sugar, less ice cream! ha ha AND, excited to eat healthy.


One of my favorites was the chicken soy patties(spicy) I love them and they are high in protein! I was able to eat one on an english muffin last week and it was wonderful! Before, I couldn't because it would get stuck and the pain with it was not fun!

I love stir fry and can eat that again!

I am trying to be mindful of all that I am eating and NOT eating!

Have a great day!
Kerri

lapband update 083109

Wow, much better! I had 1 cc taken out today and I already feel much better. I actually ate 1/2 bagel for the first time (without problems), in a long time! And I didn't want to keep eating!

Had a small helping of chicken supper and was also able to eat that without that terrible stuck feeling!

Back to the Vikings/Houston game. GO VIKINGS!

take care,
Kerri

Lapband update 083009

Made a dr. apt on Friday to have some fill taken out. I'm excited I can get in tomorrow! I should have gone in a long time ago, but....It's just one of those things.

I'm looking forward to being able to eat healthy foods and i'm not scared with thoughts that i'll over eat. That was a feeling I battled for a long time!

Take Care
Kerri

Lapband update 082709

I hate this.......Stuck again, dang it. I have had a couple bad nights. Part of the problem is because It's very difficult to sit down and eat a full meal, we lapbanders tend to eat a little, do something, eat a little more, do something.. so what happens with me is I end up eating before bed and for some reason the last couple nights my food got stuck, it wasn't a stuck feeling like alot of times where I need to go and push it all back out into the toilet. (it's not throwing up in my eyes because your food hasn't gotten to your stomach, it's sitting in your esophagus)

I went to sleep and did NOT get good sleep. There are different "stuck" feelings too and it's too hard to explain the difference. I didn't feel I could make it come back up, plus I was too tired!

It hurts too, btw. Oh, I should tell you what I ate, since I figured it wouldn't be a problem. Night before last it was a small amount of chicken along with some broccoli, kinda mushy so I figured I would have no problem. Wrong. last night I ate corn and chewed alot, that ended up being a problem too.

Tonight, my dear hubby made me stir fry and so I sat here doing some computer work and ate very slow.......nope, I had to let it come back up! So then what do I do? Eat food I know won't get stuck, ice cream!

Well, I've been wondering if I should go in and have an adjustment. I'm sure you're asking why WOULDN'T I do that. answer: Fear that I'll over eat! That's why......but I think I'm going to try, I'm just not able to eat healthy. We always joke about being able to eat candy, chips, all the good food, but can't digest all the healthy food.

BTW, I did start exercising again, it feels so great.

I'm sitting here still stuck and it's frustrating. Definitely going to call the doctor tomorrow!

Enjoy your week end!
Kerri

Time Management

Hello, you want to know how many times I've told myself to blog and forget to. Too many!

I started this blog to keep you posted on my Lapband status and i've failed to do that. I could beat myself up over that, along with the fact that I haven't worked out since the Fargo 5K back in May. Along with the struggle of eating healthy. Guess what? rather than sit and feel like crap about it, I'm gonna put a stop to it! Cuz I'm tired of being tired all the time. Sure, I'm tired anyway because of my work hours, but I can not remember being as tired as I have been the last month. And it SUCKS! I end up telling myself i'm too tired to work out so I take a nap.

Sigh, I do not like this feeling of having to start over again. I will do it!

Time Management, I am going to google it now!

gotta run, stay cool!
Kerri
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Happy Summer!

Over the week end a few friends gave me a hard time about not blogging, decided it was time to "make time" to write a few thoughts.

I've had a lot of ups and downs with food, exercise and weight. I grew very frustrated during training for the Fargo 5K. I felt like no matter how hard I worked out and did cardio, it just didn't help. I've questioned my weight almost every day over the past year. I've stayed the same weight but have lost body fat. Sure, that's what I want but it's still a mental struggle.

I beat my 5K time by a couple minutes, that was my personal goal and I reached it. Since the Fargo 5K i've really struggled with having time and desire to go to the gym and work out. It's been over a month and i've only worked out a handful of times.

I have too much going on, it's not an excuse a fact of life for now. I will get back in the routine and am happy I haven't gained any weight.

As far as eating goes, there has been several times i've thought about going in and getting some fill taken out. It's frustrating because I hoped to have lost more weight at this point but it seems not matter what, I'm stuck......ha, that's funny....cuz food is always stuck too!

thanks for taking time to read my blog and enjoy summer, it goes far too fast!

Kerri
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1 year ago today. Caitlin Calgaro

It was a year ago, about this time (6am) my dear friend Sarah called to tell me Caitlin was involved in a car accident and taken to be with her heavenly Father. Not a day has gone by that I have not thought about Caitlin and her family! Please pray for Loni and John her mom and dad, mostly Loni because she is one of my best friends and I love her dearly!

A Prayer at the Well! It's night, O Lord, please hear my call;
I know You want my very all.
But wells are deep; how can I give
The wordless pain in which I live!

It's night, O Lord, be swift to hear;
To bring relief for falling tears.
Needless pain, don't let it be;
But healing pain, to set me free.

Be still, My child; My whispers hear.
Lean hard, My child; come very near.
This well so deep with suffering filled
Must empty first, till all is still.

I'll take the hurt; I'll take the strife;
In Hands so strong I'll hold your life.
I'll fill the well with heaven's gain,
When you, My child, give Me the pain.

I'll take it, mold it, make it Mine;
Transform it then to love divine.
Turn sorrow into fullest joy
Far greater than earth's brightest toy.

For toys of earth cannot compare
With Christ your Lord, so real, so fair.
He, Christ alone, demands your all
Give Me that pain, He softly calls.

I shrink, then reach with outstretched hand;
Dredged of self, alone to stand.
Then from the depths of Love so true
The well is filled again, anew.

This time it's not with pain and me,
But Christ my all, my joy to be.
To depths before unknown I climb
His peace, His joy, His life all mine.

For pain so deep, felt all alone,
Is fertile ground for Love--His own!
Love that fills and meets life's need;
O deep, deep well, I'm rich indeed.

Filled up with Him, His love alone;
His way revealed; His glory shone.
O well of deep, dark yesterday;
Embrace the joy He gives today.

O, night, no longer fear your dark;
He stills the aching, struggling heart.
And from that heart--life's deepening well,
Comes love to share; rich joy to tell.

O, night, give way to endless day!
I've found His depths, His highest way!
O, night, give way to morning's dew;
The well is deep; the source is You!

Spin Class was awesome!

I would suggest everyone try it out! Sure, it was a heck of a work out, but you CAN go at your own pace, set your own tension. Sit if you need to. I did a couple times! Boy did I sweat buckets!

It's a 6 week class you have to sign up for, at Center Court is where I go. Twice a week! I'm hoping and praying this will help me get over this plateau i've been on!

Give it a try if you get a chance!

3 weeks until the Fargo 5K! yeah!

btw, I absolutely HATE running!

Kerri

Spin Class tonight

Alright, I am pretty nervous about doing this spin class at the gym tonight. I've seen them spinning and it looks very tuff to me!

Here's my point, tell yourself you can DO IT. For so long I told myself I could NOT do this spin class and thanks to a friend/listener. Dorothy Kellog. I AM DOING IT!

You can too!!!!

Kerri

Emotional Eating

I'm in a bad mood, I hate it!

It's times like these that I realize that I DO participate in emotional eating. Just ate 8 mint Girl Scout cookies to a tune of 160 calories for 4. So that's 320 calories! Isn't that nice.

Apparently that's not enough so why not sit and eat Jalapeno Cheetos!

Frustrated. I need to go home and go to bed

Not ENUF calories?

Today I had my body fat and measurements done again. Mostly because of my frustration of working out as much as I do and not being able to loose weight. I had a different trainer do it for me, even tho most of my meaurements were down about 2 inches, I'm gonna have Kris at Center Court do it again next week.

A couple trainers I've talked to at the gym mentioned maybe I wasn't getting ENUF calories and that can actually keep a person for loosing weight. I dunno, I'm having a hard time believing that, so I am keeping track of what i'm eating. Yes, i've said many times I was going to keep track, but didn't follow thru. I'm frustrated, but not letting it keep me from getting off track with my work outs and healthy eating.

Have a blessed Easter
Kerri

Things in the past month

Wholy cow, saw my last blog was March 3rd. and it's April 1st tomorrow. Amazing how fast it goes.
Let's see, been busy with all the flooding here, many friends have asked if our home is ok, and it is. Things in GF are actually very good, after the flood of 97, millions of dollars were spent to keep the city safe.

I did have a chance to help a good friend T Wibbles last Friday, we filled and set about 1500 sand bags. I probably helped with about 20! LOL. UND students came out and did an amazing job! It was so neat to be a part of such compassion for another person and their safety.

Food, hmmm. I tried eating samon a couple times and it was very bad. I'd put the pain in the top 5 "stucks"! I love samon, but can't eat it, or at least not very much. I can eat fish tho, kinda strange.

I'm training again for the Fargo 5k coming up May 9th and hope to beat my time. I know I can do it! Boop a Thon training at Center Court fitness is awesome, fun and rewarding!
I decided today I need to keep better track of what I eat since I can't seem to loose any weight on the scale. I'm frustrated, but won't let it get me down, nor stop me from keeping up with my work outs. I just need to use the tools I have, www.tweetwhatyoueat.com and keep track of what I eat.

I'm going to have Tayna, a trainer at the gym check my body fat tomorrow, I know it's gone done, even tho my weight hasn't. I know how some of those guys feel on Biggest Loser! Since I gained 2 pounds. SIGH....

I refuse to let it discourage me, in fact it did the opposite! ha ha. I ran 2 miles in 29 minutes, that's my best time so far!

Be safe, be dry and stay positive and remember you can do anything you set your mind to!

Kerri

Exercise really is addicting!

Hey, I'm feeling great about my accomplishments this week ALREADY! I did 2 miles on Saturday, Monday and Tuesday, only missed Sunday! Plus I did 2 miles in 30.5 minutes today, that's 1 minute less than Saturday! Yippy!

Trying a new class at Center Court tomorrow. It's a combination of cardio/weights. It's a new class Tanya(a new friend) is teaching! I'm excited to try soemthing new, even tho I know she's gonna kick my butt!

Have a great Wednesday!
Kerri

change is hard but can be good

it's Saturday morning and I decide I need to change my work outs a bit. You see, Fridays are so busy, I don't have time to get to the gym. And I always skip Saturday and Sunday. Well, I am going to try to stick to a new habit of getting on the treadmill for 2 miles. I DID IT! I made myself get on the treadmill and I feel great!

Gotta go tho, hockey game is in an hour and i'm suppose to be ready!

Kerri

uh oh. pizza didn't get stuck

Hey,
I say uh oh because after having lapband surgery, pizza has always been something I couldn't eat because of that. I was able to eat two pieces Friday night. Well, this may sound silly to you but for me, it bothers me and makes me think it's time to go get a fill.

I am really frustrated, I am working out pretty regular, I go to the gym for about an hour a day and work out pretty hard. My eating is still not where it should be, but it's not like I eat like a pig, because I don't! But I can't loose any weight and I don't feel like i'm loosing enough body fat that I should considering the exercise i'm doing.

rggggggg, i'm frustrated!
Kerri

Food got stuck...bad! It's been awhile!

So I thought I could eat meatloaf and a bit of mac and cheese. I am pretty sure part of the problem was I ate too fast but I was in serious pain! I have not had to push the food back out in a long time!

It is no fun, I ask myself "why did you eat that"? and "did you have to eat it so fast"?

It slips my mind, I know that probably doesn't make sense, but I STILL slip into that bad habit of eating way too fast! Even tho I eat much slower than pre surgery.

Good tip today for ya, SLOW DOWN! LOL

Have a good day, back to American Idol

Kerri

I feel muscles!

OMGosh,

This working out is paying off! LOL IMAGINE THAT!

Never go 3 days without working out! Always work out on Mondays and for heavens sake, stay away from those home made cookies!

I just want to encourage you to get moving and exercise, we both know how tuff it is but when you do! Man, it's worth the hard work!

Smile! and think positive!

Kerri

Am I the ONLY one?

I have really been struggling lately with having to follow thru with the job duties that belong to someone else.

Does anyone else struggle with this?

Am I too much of an OVER achiever?

Do I expect TOO MUCH?

Just curious,
Kerri

Eli Stone....LOVE....LOVE...LOVE....MAD

I absolutely LOVED Eli Stone. It was one of my favorite shows! I pretty much figured it was cancelled. I just don't understand how and why networks cancel some of the best shows! Remember Once and Again? I loved that show too! GONE...Friday Night Lights, GONE, sure it's back, but I bet it won't be for long!

Look at him!!! How can you NOT love Eli!

I am sooooo bummed,

Kerri

This week is better

It's Wednesday and I worked out Monday and Tuesday! Yippy! Today I will have to do the treadmill at home, I have a busy afternoon.

I am eating less junk food!

Oh, I got on the scale at the gym yesterday. I am STILL at the same weight I have been at for about 2 1/2 months! Hey, I didn't gain any weight! That's a plus!

Have a great hump day!
Kerri

what's the first thing I ate? a brownie..geez

It's Monday, woke up and couldn't resist the temptation of my homemade brownies! Yep, I ate one.

Guess I can't go do my blood work today....ha ha ha ha tomorrow I will!

Have a great Monday!

Kerri

Better Week

Hello, sittin watching the Superbowl. This week was better, I worked out 4 days this week. Still can't find the motivation to work out on the week ends. Talked to my mom, i'm gonna take a day off next week and go spend some time with her. She's gonna help me with some creative low fat recipes! Mom is doing really good with her eating and health. I am very proud of my mom! She's very motivating and encouraging!

Working on eating SLOW....SLOW...SLOW. Amazing how much that helps with food NOT getting stuck!

Have a great week,
Kerri

Give me some motivation!

It's Tuesday today and i've really been struggling with feeling like a failure for the last couple weeks. Why? I've gotten into my bad habit of being too busy to be faithful to my work outs. My eating habits continue to slack. Tho I am not trying to make excuses, part of my problem is I hate going to the grocery store AND I can't fit it in. Because by the time I leave work and I'm done working out, A. I want to get home to Savanna and B. I am way tooo tired to go.

I am tired of feeling like a failure and the only one who can change that is me. So, I am going to do my best at this. That means, stop eating chocolate at work, brownies, cake, all that junk food I tend to grab cuz i'm in a hurry.

http://www.tweetwhatyoueat.com/

If you are looking for a great way to keep track of what you eat, and you want it to be easy. Including texting your account what you eat. Go to that website!

If you are struggling, STOP..we can get healthy together!
Thanks for reading my blog!
Kerri

My new Living Room floor!

My oldest daughter and son in law are here in Grand Forks now. They both took jobs here to be closer to us, family! Honestly, I would not have a problem if they decided to stay here in our house! I have loved and cherished every moment we've had since August. Even tho house hunting can be frustrating, they/we are also blessed with NOT having to hurry into any house that comes along. We've looked at many but the right one has not come along.

So, for now....we are here together and I am thankful tonight, thankful that I have such a wonderful daughter (and son in law). Not because they wanted to give us a special treat and pay for this new floor, ......wait....that's why i'm thankful! LOL

True, but I am so proud of Tanisha, she is a beautiful, thoughtful, caring, smart, loving, compassionate, did I say smart? daughter.

Tanisha, Steve...thank you so much for the gift. It's something I have wanted for almost 3 years.

I love you both,

Mom!

Monday, January 19th 2009

I continue to be amazed at how fast time slips by. I strive to be the best that I can be and not worry about the small stuff. Tho this will probably continue to be a battle for the rest of my earthly life, I am reminded of the blessings God has given me thru my life with my health and happiness. Even tho I struggle with my weight, I am thankful that it is really a small struggle. When I stop and think about those around me who are struggling for life.

Hope Covenant Church has become a refuge for me, a place I can go and worship God and discover amazing people who love God and care about one another. I am blessed to be a part of the Hope family.

Pastor Holly will be going in for a CT scan this Thursday morning at 11am. Doctors found a brain tumor just last week and they have given her encouragement and hope that it is NOT cancerous. But until they get in and take a closer look, we are not sure.

Pray for Holly, please. and pray for me. I feel like I need it! Yes, we all do at ALL times, but right now I desire to grow closer to God and i'm struggling with finding the time and energy.

Take Care,
Kerri

Resisting temptation

Why is it so hard to reist temptation? Do you have any tricks?

I am having such a hard time with my eating habits. I eat much less that before my lapband surgery, but i'm still clinging on to those old habits. Like, rather than grab some carrots, I grab chocolate, or cheese.

Something to think about, off to the gym!
Kerri

Jan. 7th New Year update

Happy New Year! I must admit I am happy to be past the holidays so I can get back into my work out routine!
Just remember, you can do anything you set your mind to!
Have you heard about Joy's LIFE diet?
LIFE stands for Look Incredible Feel Extraordinary.
It's very motivating, check it out!

Find someone to be accountable to! or something! At work, we are all participating in Healthtrip! An overall wellness 114 day journey!

Things are ok with my lapband, I ate a bunch of potato chips today, way TOO FAST and paid for it! I'm still struggling with eating too fast and eating unhealthy junk. But, i'm working on it every day!

Happy New Year again,
Kerri