Happy Summer!

Over the week end a few friends gave me a hard time about not blogging, decided it was time to "make time" to write a few thoughts.

I've had a lot of ups and downs with food, exercise and weight. I grew very frustrated during training for the Fargo 5K. I felt like no matter how hard I worked out and did cardio, it just didn't help. I've questioned my weight almost every day over the past year. I've stayed the same weight but have lost body fat. Sure, that's what I want but it's still a mental struggle.

I beat my 5K time by a couple minutes, that was my personal goal and I reached it. Since the Fargo 5K i've really struggled with having time and desire to go to the gym and work out. It's been over a month and i've only worked out a handful of times.

I have too much going on, it's not an excuse a fact of life for now. I will get back in the routine and am happy I haven't gained any weight.

As far as eating goes, there has been several times i've thought about going in and getting some fill taken out. It's frustrating because I hoped to have lost more weight at this point but it seems not matter what, I'm stuck......ha, that's funny....cuz food is always stuck too!

thanks for taking time to read my blog and enjoy summer, it goes far too fast!

Kerri
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1 year ago today. Caitlin Calgaro

It was a year ago, about this time (6am) my dear friend Sarah called to tell me Caitlin was involved in a car accident and taken to be with her heavenly Father. Not a day has gone by that I have not thought about Caitlin and her family! Please pray for Loni and John her mom and dad, mostly Loni because she is one of my best friends and I love her dearly!

A Prayer at the Well! It's night, O Lord, please hear my call;
I know You want my very all.
But wells are deep; how can I give
The wordless pain in which I live!

It's night, O Lord, be swift to hear;
To bring relief for falling tears.
Needless pain, don't let it be;
But healing pain, to set me free.

Be still, My child; My whispers hear.
Lean hard, My child; come very near.
This well so deep with suffering filled
Must empty first, till all is still.

I'll take the hurt; I'll take the strife;
In Hands so strong I'll hold your life.
I'll fill the well with heaven's gain,
When you, My child, give Me the pain.

I'll take it, mold it, make it Mine;
Transform it then to love divine.
Turn sorrow into fullest joy
Far greater than earth's brightest toy.

For toys of earth cannot compare
With Christ your Lord, so real, so fair.
He, Christ alone, demands your all
Give Me that pain, He softly calls.

I shrink, then reach with outstretched hand;
Dredged of self, alone to stand.
Then from the depths of Love so true
The well is filled again, anew.

This time it's not with pain and me,
But Christ my all, my joy to be.
To depths before unknown I climb
His peace, His joy, His life all mine.

For pain so deep, felt all alone,
Is fertile ground for Love--His own!
Love that fills and meets life's need;
O deep, deep well, I'm rich indeed.

Filled up with Him, His love alone;
His way revealed; His glory shone.
O well of deep, dark yesterday;
Embrace the joy He gives today.

O, night, no longer fear your dark;
He stills the aching, struggling heart.
And from that heart--life's deepening well,
Comes love to share; rich joy to tell.

O, night, give way to endless day!
I've found His depths, His highest way!
O, night, give way to morning's dew;
The well is deep; the source is You!

Spin Class was awesome!

I would suggest everyone try it out! Sure, it was a heck of a work out, but you CAN go at your own pace, set your own tension. Sit if you need to. I did a couple times! Boy did I sweat buckets!

It's a 6 week class you have to sign up for, at Center Court is where I go. Twice a week! I'm hoping and praying this will help me get over this plateau i've been on!

Give it a try if you get a chance!

3 weeks until the Fargo 5K! yeah!

btw, I absolutely HATE running!

Kerri

Spin Class tonight

Alright, I am pretty nervous about doing this spin class at the gym tonight. I've seen them spinning and it looks very tuff to me!

Here's my point, tell yourself you can DO IT. For so long I told myself I could NOT do this spin class and thanks to a friend/listener. Dorothy Kellog. I AM DOING IT!

You can too!!!!

Kerri

Emotional Eating

I'm in a bad mood, I hate it!

It's times like these that I realize that I DO participate in emotional eating. Just ate 8 mint Girl Scout cookies to a tune of 160 calories for 4. So that's 320 calories! Isn't that nice.

Apparently that's not enough so why not sit and eat Jalapeno Cheetos!

Frustrated. I need to go home and go to bed

Not ENUF calories?

Today I had my body fat and measurements done again. Mostly because of my frustration of working out as much as I do and not being able to loose weight. I had a different trainer do it for me, even tho most of my meaurements were down about 2 inches, I'm gonna have Kris at Center Court do it again next week.

A couple trainers I've talked to at the gym mentioned maybe I wasn't getting ENUF calories and that can actually keep a person for loosing weight. I dunno, I'm having a hard time believing that, so I am keeping track of what i'm eating. Yes, i've said many times I was going to keep track, but didn't follow thru. I'm frustrated, but not letting it keep me from getting off track with my work outs and healthy eating.

Have a blessed Easter
Kerri

Things in the past month

Wholy cow, saw my last blog was March 3rd. and it's April 1st tomorrow. Amazing how fast it goes.
Let's see, been busy with all the flooding here, many friends have asked if our home is ok, and it is. Things in GF are actually very good, after the flood of 97, millions of dollars were spent to keep the city safe.

I did have a chance to help a good friend T Wibbles last Friday, we filled and set about 1500 sand bags. I probably helped with about 20! LOL. UND students came out and did an amazing job! It was so neat to be a part of such compassion for another person and their safety.

Food, hmmm. I tried eating samon a couple times and it was very bad. I'd put the pain in the top 5 "stucks"! I love samon, but can't eat it, or at least not very much. I can eat fish tho, kinda strange.

I'm training again for the Fargo 5k coming up May 9th and hope to beat my time. I know I can do it! Boop a Thon training at Center Court fitness is awesome, fun and rewarding!
I decided today I need to keep better track of what I eat since I can't seem to loose any weight on the scale. I'm frustrated, but won't let it get me down, nor stop me from keeping up with my work outs. I just need to use the tools I have, www.tweetwhatyoueat.com and keep track of what I eat.

I'm going to have Tayna, a trainer at the gym check my body fat tomorrow, I know it's gone done, even tho my weight hasn't. I know how some of those guys feel on Biggest Loser! Since I gained 2 pounds. SIGH....

I refuse to let it discourage me, in fact it did the opposite! ha ha. I ran 2 miles in 29 minutes, that's my best time so far!

Be safe, be dry and stay positive and remember you can do anything you set your mind to!

Kerri